I get older every stinking day!

It is kind of scary when you realize your superheroes aren't actually all that super. Like in Arthur Miller's Death of a Salesman, when Biff catches his father doing immoral things and realizes Willie isn't wasn't perfect as he had grown up believing--like everyone else, Willie had flaws, insecurities, and made mistakes.


On a smaller scale:
At work today, my head manager asked me which colors she needed to mix to make red. I know, not a big deal... but for the past year and a half, I have grown too look up to this individual as my mentor, in a sense. She has been scooping ice cream and decorating cakes for much longer than I, and I have never before questioned her judgment or competence.
I realized today that the people I have grown too admire and inspire to be like aren't actually all that different (or better) than me. I'm getting older, maturing, and beginning to become these individuals' equal. I am now also a manager, with quite a bit of experience behind me. It's frightening to feel that I no longer have someone to aspire to be like. Thankfully, I have the security of knowing I don't plan on serving ice cream to snotty children for the rest of my life--I still have plenty of things I want to do with my life, and plenty of people to inspire and encourage me along the way.
So, in many ways, this incident was also quite assuring. It made me aware of how my hard work was paying off. Of course, the momentary lapse in logic that my coworker experienced doesn't necessarily say anything about me as an individual. However, this experience guided me to an epiphany, during which I finally understood that I was no longer the pupil, but the friend, waiting for the chance to teach.

Poor Jacob

So, I recently started reading the Twilight series. A week ago, to be exact. It's my goal to finish Eclipse before Breaking Dawn is released Friday. I'm doing pretty good--a third of the way through, with three days left! Right now, I'm at the part (spoiler alert!) where Bella returns to the Cullen's house after Jacob kidnaps/rescues her. This book is driving me crazy!

How can everyone be so thrilled to see Bella with Edward? He's nothing but a clingy, demanding jerkface! There's nothing keeping them together but lust and greed! UGH! I generally take a vampire's side no matter what, but I can't just stand by while Bella abandons her best friend (who happens to be an attractive werewolf) for this dweeb!

"I'll never see anyone else, Bella. I only see you. Even when I close my eyes and try to see something else."-Jacob Black

He's so adorable! I'm sorry, but Edward's "nobility" isn't a major turn on for me. Leaving her to save her seems quite retarded. I suppose I'm supposed to *awe* at his selflessness, but grow a spine! And when he tries to kill himself because he can't imagine living in a world without her... again, BLEH! It could be romantic, i guess, had he not abandoned her for the last half a year prior to her supposed death. But that Romeo & Juliet crap, killing yourself because your boyfriend's gone, just kind of irritates me. What a sissy! At least Jacob is FUN!

Oh well, maybe I'll change my mind and learn to love Edward again... He does have some pretty nice cars. Plus, Alice is pretty amazing! I named my lost kitty after her >.< We'll see.